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Sorry for people who saw the last post twice - I saw a typo and fixed it, not realizing that the "Use current time" option would use the time of editing. Alas.

So that this doesn't become just an apology, here's a meme about me


So what have you been up to? / Major life changes? Same old same old?

Same job, new team that has seen 3 changes in a single year for my direct bosses, so that's been annoying. I've also been experimenting with lifestyle changes such as clothes and dance classes, and since my self-esteem isn't the best it's come with some whiplash moments. But I think I am better overall.

What fandom are you in/do you spend most of your time in?

Not in any fandom at the moment, but judging from my tumblr surfing/reblogs I am technically in the MCU, Homestuck and Transformers fandoms. I'm just not writing fic at the moment for them, which is weird for me.

Where do you hang out online?

Here and tumblr, and that already takes up all my time.

What are you reading?

Guide books in preparation for my trip to Japan during the autumn leaves season. Sadly there isn't very much seasonal stuff.

What are you watching?

Media wise, nothing. I am keeping an eye on this pot of roses I bought in May because it likes to give me heart attacks like falling off the shelf or its blooms being so heavy it snaps the stem.

What are you making?

Currently rewriting the novel that I wrote for last year's NaNo. I'm 5 chapters in of 13, though I'm not sure if it will still be 13.

What are you squeeing about today?

Awesome music from 8tracks of the Kpop variety.

If you could rope old fandom friends into a new fandom, it would be.....

I don't have any new fandoms. I just wish my old fandom friends and I could find a new fandom to agree on. They'd probably ask me to watch Steven Universe, but while I enjoy seeing the posts on my dash I have no inclination to actually watch the series.

I should really watch/read/dive into _______ and then come talk to you about it!

Mad Max: Fury Road has been the movie of the year for me and I really wish I could talk to more people about it even though my urge to fic is not there. Also has anyone watched Hitman? I want to watch it for scenery pr0n.

What else is on your mind?

Another meme going around about what I would tell my 13 year old self - currently bouncing between "daring to be weird will actually make you a better person" and "the friends you make from now on, even the ones who were "forced" on you, will be your friends for life" - and of course spiraling into the nature of friendships and self-esteem from there.

Now we're at the end of the 2014 NaNo. I'm about 27,000 words into the story, which works out to be about 6 chapters. What that means in story progression remains to be seen, since I'm pantsing things. I don't have a firm plot outline, and just a few days ago I trashed an entire scene. The story actually works out better that way, even though I lost some character interaction I liked. We'll see if the emotional progress still makes sense with the deleted scene.

I'd thought of starting editing next month, but my mom broke her arm and I need to be able to drop whatever I'm doing when she calls. It's easier to pick up the threads when writing rather than editing. We'll see how it goes.

Here's to the end of the Nano. It's a time for putting things together and learning what we got out of the process =)

I wanted to ramble about my main characters, but I realised that everything I wanted to gush about was spoilery, and everything I could gush about wanted to be caveated in big letter "BUT THIS WILL CHANGE DUE TO X THING IN PLOT!"

So I will just keep it simple today and say that this series of images makes me think of my male lead for the reason that he still continues to be imaginative and creative despite being in fear. Possibly even closer in imagery, because this is a novel about dreams after all.

Just five more days to the end of NaNo. Today I just finished up the 5th chapter, clocking in at about 22.5k words. Not bad for something that was supposed to wind up only 10.5k words long. However, I can feel myself writing with caveats already, like "This needs to be introduced in Chapter 2 so I can make the female lead's dilemma about switching jobs clearer." The end of the month might be a good time to pop back and edit so I can write it in definitively, instead of making mental notes all the time.

We'll see what the next five days bring. Novel progress might become a weekly thing instead, as I balance both writing and editing.

The reason why I was writing just 350 words a day set me back to that baseline, which meant no time for even writing posts.

But towards the tail end of my busy period, I got to go for an art exhibition, and saw Gabriel Moreno's painting (the one in the body of the article). Immediately I thought, "This is Janelle from my novel."

Unlike the painter, Janelle in my head has African ancestry, but she definitely loves such bold colours! This is more reflective of her fun-loving aspect than the mentor she plays for my main character.

Her evolution has actually been kind of interesting. As hinted by her name, she actually started out a bit like Janelle Monae. Then I started to think Rihanna might be cool too, as was Lupita Nyong'o. These two ladies I suspect are the reason for Janelle's more forceful character, though the Janelle in my novel remains a lover of music and arts.

It's 1993 and I've just lost my 3rd tooth. I'm sleeping with it under my pillow when I smell the most incredible floral perfume. The smell is so intense that I dream of rolling hills of flowers and grass. When I wake up, the tooth is gone. My parents, who hadn't been shy about giving me money in the morning for the previous two teeth the tooth fairy didn't take, swear it wasn't them.

It's 1995 and my teacher is handing out personalised reading assignments. She makes the mistake of handing me 20,000 Leagues under the Sea. From then on she catches me reading it non-stop under the table, but can't confiscate her own book.

It's 1997 and I have a nightmare about a scarecrow. I hate it enough that I drag myself out of my dream. From then on, I've had some control over what I dream. People call it lucid dreaming.

It's 1999 and I've watched the Matrix and Serial Experiments Lain in the same year. I spent the time waiting for the second Matrix movie thinking about technology and minds and all the different worlds. I watch the other Matrix movies, get disappointed and drop the idea of virtual worlds entirely.

It's 2010, and Inception has just been released. After the Matrix I go into it with a doubtful mind, but find the movie enjoyable even though I know dreams can be pushed a lot further than what the movie showed.

It's 2013, and I watch Pacific Rim and Sword Art Online. The idea of the shared minds to drive the Jaegar and a game that traps minds makes me recall 1999. I mull over the idea.

It's 2014, and reading all these posts in quick succession causes the more distant Inception to crash headfirst into Pacific Rim and Sword Art Online. I flail madly as a world is born.

It's 2014, and I'm writing a novel about lucid dreamers who are the last stand between the waking and the dream world.