我要飞Faye

Neolithic Revolution
by Ali Shapiro
       
I'm tired of the way love turns us into animals.
I'm tired of roaring. I'm tired of you tearing
my flesh with your teeth, stalking me like prey
in the shower, lunging and growling; I'm tired
of pawing, and panting, and hunting
and wagging. Of course at first it was thrilling. The we
have no words for this. The we are just
our bodies. But look at my cortex. Look
at my opposable thumbs. I want out
of this stew, I want to use tools, I want to develop
agriculture and walk upright towards you through
this field of corn that we planted, on purpose, because
we were hungry, and human, and knew
exactly what we were doing.

Song
Adrienne Rich

You're wondering if I'm lonely:
OK then, yes, I'm lonely
as a plane rides lonely and level
on its radio beam, aiming
across the Rockies
for the blue-strung aisles
of an airfield on the ocean.

You want to ask, am I lonely?
Well, of course, lonely
as a woman driving across country
day after day, leaving behind
mile after mile
little towns she might have stopped
and lived and died in, lonely

If I'm lonely
it must be the loneliness
of waking first, of breathing
dawn's first cold breath on the city
of being the one awake
in a house wrapped in sleep

If I'm lonely
it's with the rowboat ice-fast on the shore
in the last red light of the year
that knows what it is, that knows it's neither
ice nor mud nor winter light
but wood, with a gift for burning

I made a note last night to start documenting all the creative things that go through my head in the course of a day - I have a lot of WIPs that I either don't have the time or stamina to finish. (12 hour work days do that to you =P)

But I managed to surprise myself today! Although I don't have anything concrete to show for it, I have mentally worked on several things. The first one being the idea that set off this post, which in turn was inspired by snippets from the comic Yume and Ever. It's a really beautifully drawn comic with a unique narrating style. Not to mention male eye candy, which is rarely done well, and key characters of colour. Woo hoo! I really want to read the series, if I can get it.

More importantly, it reminded me that I really wanted to write a comic book. I'm not good enough at drawing, and the last time I wrote a comic book was in a school project with some extremely talented artists, something I'm short on now. But that shouldn't stop me from writing it out, as if it were a play.

The original story currently in my head that seems to lend itself better to this form is a superhero story that I've been thinking of on and off. The general form would be a romance set in a superhero comic, but identity instead of romance would be the key theme. Namely, if it's the superhero identity that is supposed to be attached, what does that mean for the person behind the mask? I've got some detailed scenes in my head, all the way down to panelling, which makes me wish that brains could be wired to a printer so that I can get it out immediately instead of having to write it out instead.

Unfortunately the other things I've been doing aren't very condusive to writing a comic book. I did up the playlist for my Star Trek fic, and it consists mostly of break-up songs, which makes sense considering my plot... I was planning on getting myself into the appropriate mood for the fic through the playlist, but now some individual songs are bugging me. Perhaps I'll just weed the wrong type of songs out.

Then I read this very beautiful poem called COSMOLOGY: A USER'S MANUAL. It put me in the mood for poetry as well, and I'm glad that I have poetry on my reading list to solve urges like that!

On top of that I'm reading Wuthering Heights. I actually bought the book a few years back, but I didn't start reading it because I wanted to reread Pride and Prejudice first. My first impression is that everyone in the book is crazy, even the narrator, which makes for a very interesting framing of the story. But I am already sorry for Heathcliff, because it appears to me that the circumstances of the story conspire to make him a villain.

So now I just have to pick one thing to focus on tomorrow. I wonder what it would be?